Favorite thing - regrouping alone time
Do you ever feel labeled? Do you ever feel as if no one really knows you? Do you feel misunderstood?
That's kind of where I need to camp today.
Mom, wife, jewelry artist, creative, chief chef, fashionista, taxi driver, writer. Those are the hats I try to balance...on a good day.
But it's hard. And I don't do all things well.
Don't get me wrong, I love what I do...but just like you...I am constantly reaching for the brass ring of balance. Reaching, not grabbing. Reaching, fingers glancing, barely touching. Always fearing that someone will get let down in the process. Fearing failure.
And what happens is I end up being the one let down and disappointed, and then there is aftermath.
It's hard trying to be all things, for all people. It's hard building a business. I work all the time. And when I'm not working, I need to be there for my family. That leaves little time for extra-curricular activities...like friendship and fun. I'm not complaining, just explaining. That part is often misunderstood by others.
So if you feel neglected, or even rejected for that matter....please do not. You ARE not. I'm just juggling. And if you have ever watched a circus juggler, they drop stuff. Even the good ones.
Sometimes I just need to regroup. Sometimes I just need to answer the question -- to which I know the answer -- Am I ever Enough? Funny, I wrote a post on that!
Why is this a Favorite Things post? Because truly, one of my favorite things to do when I'm feeling like this, is be alone. Not for a long time, but long enough to savor the quiet, answer the questions in my head, and think. Block out all noise, block out all pressure - even for just a minute - and be still.
Today, in the midst of preparing for a sale, filling orders, teaching children, driving all over creation, processing all that is whirling in my head, and feeling vastly inadequate...I'm going to do just that. Be still.
Of course I'll be wearing cute shoes while I do it...but that is beyond the point! ** Just didn't want you to think this was a total "Eeyore post". ** What do YOU do when the overwhelm sets in? Do you have a favorite way to "re-group"? I'd love to know.
| Posted on March 28 2012